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Today, I've proven to myself that I shouldn't let confidence be embedded in myself. I've been gaining poor results lately and this really hurt my heart. I don't wanna go through all these sufferings. Being pessimistic and lack of confidence is not good, I know. However, being over-confident is bad too. Do you know how much it hurts when you finally found confidence that you can do well in something but ended up doing worse than before? That's what I'm feeling now. Hurt, pain, suffering, sad, depressed. Perhaps, you think that I'm being far too pessimistic but I don't like this kinda disappointment. That's why I don't like to be confident in myself. I'm afraid of this kinda disappointment that I''ll get in return. And this is what I get from being over-confident. I don't know if I can tilt my head back and smile naturally to anyone anymore. I felt that I've disappointed not only myself but also my parents. Sorry.

Suddenly felt that I can't do anything now. Can't concentrate on my studies. Can't organise my stuff properly. Can't think of what to do now. Perhaps, it's just stress. So many practical exams are approaching and I'm still not working hard enough. I don't know how to do well in my exams. I tried to study but my brain just can't seem to absorb those information. I'm tired. Feel like giving up but I just can't. Tears can't help much but at least I'll feel much better after that. Listening to instrumental music is a better option, I think.

This is what I have to tell myself now:
WONG LING WENG!!! 加油!!! 加油!!! 加油!!!

What can you do when you are feeling blue? Well, I find that listening to instrumental music can be one way to make myself feel better. It's undeniable that some instrumental music are kinda sad but when I'm listening to them, I'll feel much better. It's as if there is someone out there in this world who really understand my true feeling and as if we are from the same world. I also listen to instrumental music to calm myself down so that I won't act irrationally. They are like friends who will always be there for me, especially when I need some time for myself. They are like the best companion when I'm feeling down, helpless and hopeless.

p/s: Anyone who has any nice instrumental music, don't be stingy!!! Share with me. =)

Sometimes when you are feeling too stressed, a brisk walk is more than enough. While walking around your residential area, you might see some interesting things like.....

Pink rose

White rose

Another white rose

They are big, aren't they?


People in Unit 3 are just so lucky to have a big bunch of flowers planted in front of their unit.
I would be so happy to wake up every morning and
see all those flowers blooming in front of my eyes.
At least, I'll be less stressed for a while.

Felt a bit sien~
Not in the mood to study~
And this leads to implementation of new rules that I'll have to comply with...
at least for the last one month and half in Perth... (^-^)v

Next,
my grocery shopping list for tomorrow...
Michelle listed everything that we need...
wonder how much will I spend tomorrow...

For the first time in my life, I broke a 100mL cylindrical measure in Pharmaceutics lab today. I broke a thin stirring rod once though. That's a minor accident. Today, I was so blur. Didn't know what was in my mind. I wanted to place the 100mL cylindrical measure on the wooden rack but ended up hitting the water tap and **PLANG**. My 100mL cylindrical measure was shattered into pieces in front of my eyes. Luckily, my supervisor was kind enough to help me to clean up the mess. However, I still need to clean some of the mess as she didn't realised that there were still pieces of broken glasses on the bench.

I was the last one to leave on my bench. When I was discarding my product (Iodine), I told myself to be extra careful as I didn't want to stain the sink. Unfortunately, the cap of the bottle slipped from my grasp and fell into the sink and **WALA*. I could see droplets of iodine solution scattered around the sink. I was too stunned to do anything. I just stared at the sink for a few seconds. Siaw Tze who was waiting for me told me to clean the stain asap as I didn't want the sink to be stained. But still, the sink got stained. Sob sob~ so unlucky.


Time to sleep. Had my Chemistry mid semester test today. Glad that it's over. (^-^)v Now I can sleep like a log, like how I always do. =)

I don't know why am I so tired today. I'm like a body without soul.


When I woke up this morning, I was shocked to see the time.


Slept from 11.30pm till 10am like a pig.


Energy doesn't seem to be generated in my body. Started to feel sad.


Started to feel lost. What am I supposed to do now?


A surprise early in the morning will be a great medicine, I thought.

Or perhaps, an advance summer holiday will be an excellent gift too. Can't wait to go home.


~Home Sweet Home~

Goodbye, Tuition Free Week. Hi, Hectic Schedule.

As you can see from the title, I'm saying goodbye to tuition free week. I've been telling myself to study and study and study during my tuition free week. However, what I had done was slack + procrastinate. There are gonna be some tests in October. Timetable for my final exam is out. Just a draft. And it's super crazy. 5 papers in a week. Human Biology and Pharmaceutical Biology on the very same day. Starting to feel the stress that I'll experience more in mid of October. Sigh~ I've been blaming myself for slacking and procrastinating since I started my high school. Think I was more hardworking back in high school. Getting lazier and lazier. I don't feel like giving my Hectic Schedule a warm welcome. Sob sob~ All I can say for now is time flies.