in the process

Thought that I would be strong enough to handle it. I cleaned my room, did my laundry, watched drama series, and ate lots of sweet junk food. Just wanna keep on making myself occupied. Had a great laugh last night. Thanks to the drama series. I had a dream this morning. A dream that once again revealed the fragile me but after a big cry, everything is back to normal. Thought that I'm prepared for the things that are going to happen in the future. Guess not. Sometimes I wake up with disbelief. I don't understand why things ended up like this. The wound has not recovered yet. Sometimes the wound still hurts. Sometimes it just feels numb. Things will get better soon. I hope. Well, it's kinda boring staying at home, doing the same old thing every single day. The weather refrained me from going out. I did go to Carousel the other day but there wasn't any mood to shop. Usually, I'll spend a long time trying out clothes in those shops. On that day, nothing was special to me. Everything seemed so dull and ugly. That's so not me. BUT, I have confidence that one day I'll be the normal me once again. =)