My deepest condolence to you and your family. It takes time to let go and continue with your life as usual. I know it's hard but I believe that one day you'll be fine.

45

I went to Gribbles Lab today to do some blood test. The nurse said my veins are small. She also asked me if I lost weight because my veins are mobile! Sound so scary. She said don't blame her if she can't take out my blood during the first try. She thought I lost weight purposely. Everyone thought I'm not eating well. I told everyone that I eat a lot. And some people thought I went for a diet plan. Haih~ I weighed myself again before leaving the building. I'm now 45kg. I keep losing weight without realising it. My pants are getting looser and looser now. I can now fit in to clothes that was too fit for me when I was in Perth. This is not a good way to lose weight. =(

Rx

Currently on carbimazole 20mg bd and propranolol 20mg bd. Need to get some tests done before the next appointment.

46.8

Today, I weighed myself for the first time since I came back from Perth. I was about 50-52kg in Perth. Now, I'm 46.8kg. I never thought that I would be under 50kg due to hyperthyroidism. My blood test results have shown that I have hyperthyroidism. My T4 was double of the upper limit of normal range. My TSH was seriously low compared to the usual range. I was shocked to see the result. Fortunately, it's curable. I just need to take some medications and hopefully it'll be back in control.

I didn't realise that I actually have symptoms of hyperthyroidism. The doctor in polyclinic asked if I had palpitations and I said no. When I went home that day, I felt my heartbeat. It's definitely palpitation. My heart palpitates even when I'm not doing anything, just lying on my couch and watching tv. I know I suffered from some tremor since long time ago. I thought it was normal when you're a bit nervous in front of strangers. I didn't know it's something wrong with my T4 and TSH levels until last week. Another thing is I had been suffering from profused sweating since I came back to Malaysia. Heat intolerance is one of the symptoms of hyperthyroidism. I guess I'll be on some medications form tomorrow onwards. I hope to get well soon although I know that it won't be that soon.

meow~

Will be flying to Kuching tomorrow. One day trip to Kuching. I guess this is the first time I board a plane without any luggage, just some important documents. I can just proceed to departure gate when I reach the airport tomorrow mane. Cool! Hopefully everything can be done before lunch time.