NZ

Going to leave for NZ soon. Hope that I can enjoy the trip. Gonna read this book when I have time. Hope that I can gain some knowledge from it and try to improve myself. Enjoy your winter break people...

fear

i suddenly have a weird feeling. i'm scared. i'm not strong enough. i'm fragile. i've been thinking about it every single day and this makes me so sick. i'm seriously afraid of it. i don't know if i can enjoy my nz trip. i just have this uneasy feeling right now. i'm afraid to come back all by myself. i'm sorry if i've made anyone unhappy about this since it's winter break now and we should be enjoying our holidays. i'm just..... scared

in between exam period

I totally forgot about my lunch after the exam yesterday until Yi Tyeng said she haven't had her lunch. Went to IGA and bought this [so random]. After this 'lunch', I went to bed [deprived of sleep]. But I only slept for like an hour. Thought I would sleep until dinner time since I was so tired. Then, I got nothing to do as my brain is not working at all and I need something to relax my mind. So...


I watched this movie [L for Love L for Lies] last night. Thought that it can relax my mind for a sec. However, it makes me so pekchek!!!!! Only one part is funny. The part where Ah Bao went to apply for a loan. Others.... haih~ what can I say? I seriously don't understand why someone can change so easily and so fast. As in, just because a girl kisses you doesn't mean that you can accept it and continue kissing with her. A good guy with a girlfriend won't do that but not everyone in this world is GOOD, i know. And some people just have the desire to do something over the limit [sometimes]. Well, it's the girl's fault too. She shouldn't steal her friend's boyfriend shouldn't seduce the guy too. Haih~ PEKCHEK AR!!!!! Stupid bloody B****!!! One more thing, people just shouldn't lie to each other. After you do so, you'll have to create another lie to cover your first lie. So, what's the point of lying at the first place? Just be HONEST ok? If you really fall in love with another girl/boy, please break up with your girlfriend/boyfriend [if you're damn sure that you don't love your girlfriend/boyfriend anymore]. Don't let your girlfriend/boyfriend suffer so much because of you.

There are some parts which I felt the same way as the characters inside. Like the way a girl talks to her boyfriend [in a rude way], the way she treats him and her temper. When I was watching the movie, I was like thinking 'aiya, the girl is so rude and has a temper problem'. Hang on. When I thought of myself, I'm not better than her in any way. I talk as rude as her [sometimes], I behave like her, I've always make people angry and unhappy. That's bad. I know. Well, maybe when there's less interaction between 2 people, there will be less fight or whatever. Nothing to say, nothing to quarrel about. Is that a good thing or what? I don't know.

Sometimes, girls just like to talk with a different language. Don't you guys think so? When she says 'get out of my way' = 'please don't leave me alone'. When she says 'don't follow me anymore', she wishes that you'll be behind her, following her and trying to make things better. When she says 'Fine! Let's break up!', she doesn't mean it at all. She still loves you. She only says that when she wasn't thinking rationally. When she says she doesn't want this and that means she wants this and that [most of the time]. They just love to convey a message through the opposite meaning. Guys just have to know what their girlfriends want in certain circumstances. Must know what she wants and hates at certain time. Don't be so 'blur' until you lose you girlfriend and regret for the rest of your life [if she's worth regretting for that long]. Well, what I can say is nothing is perfect, that I understand. At least, try your best to make things close to perfect. At least, you put in the effort. Don't you feel better that way?

help

help me!!!!!

do i have to take my notes to nz and study for winter break?

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