s-u-x

The pills sux. Happy pills sux. Wanted to get to know them better but I just don't have the mood to do so. Just because you sux.

sort-of-holiday

Everyone says it's gonna be a long weekend. It's just an additional of one day, which is Monday. Everyone in the pharmacy was really excited yesterday. I was excited because I got home at 5.30pm and went for a jog!!! Jogging makes me happy. =) Bumped into Zee Lin then Lukman. Had a short chat with them. I bumped into them at different time but I chatted with them at the same spot. Haha. Guess that's how small Bentley is. It's kinda fun catching up with friends unexpectedly. Wish I could see more pharmacy students walking around Bentley when I jog. Hope everyone is doing well in their final rotation.

dispensing machine

Gonna be in dispensary for 2 weeks. It's actually not that bad.

woohooo~

YES!!! I PASSED!!! I actually felt I did well this time. My best performance so far. I left the room with some confidence that I could pass. Not like the past 3 oral exams I had. I had no confidence at all due to my weak performance. BUT this time I nailed it! Yea! Sue called and told me my result. She said she could feel the happiness from my laughter. =P

And now I shall reward myself with some dramas! After I get them of course. Hehe. Thank you for the support that you guys gave me! Really appreciate it! =)

=(

Result's out and as expected, I failed again. Worse than my first oral exam. Yea. Another supp for me. I seriously felt ashamed of myself for getting such a result. I've let myself down again. Now, I don't even know if I can graduate end of this year. There's this constant fear in my heart. Especially when I'm alone at home now, I feel so much more emptier. But at the same time, I don't feel like to talking to anyone now. Just wanna be alone and cry till my heart says stop.

heaps of thank you!

I just wanna say thank you guys for all the sweet memories. It was a great experience to work in a much busier pharmacy for my 2nd placement. I get to work with a bunch of absolutely amazing people. But everytime we get closer day by day, we'll need to say goodbye at some point. Sad to say that but that's life. I'll be missing all of you. Thank you for the cake, card and gift card. Thank you for what you guys have taught me during my 7 weeks in the pharmacy.

Kevin and Jazlyn

Jessica, Kathy, Lucia, Christina

Amber, Michelle, Andre

cake from cheesecake shop and gift card for me

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I guess tomorrow is gonna be another tiring day. 10-6. I fell asleep in the bus just now, for the very first time. I don't have the gut to let myself sleeping in the bus when I have to travel back from work alone. Just in case I miss the stop. Guess what. The moment I opened my eyes, the bus was on Manning Road, about to turn into Lawson Street. If I didn't wake up, I think the only way was to walk back home.

Binge eating. I had quite a heavy lunch today. I was craving for fries. So, I went to get a medium-sized fries. It wasn't nice. I was not happy with it at all. My lunch sucks as well. An instant lunch that you put in microwave for 5-7 minutes. And DING! It's ready. Honey mustard chicken is a no-no for any meal. Felt like puking after the first mouthful of my lunch. Definitely not gonna buy that again in the future. I then had an apple before I rushed down to work again. Damn! That's a really heavy lunch. The binging didn't stop there. I reached home and finished up my dried apricots and started to eat my pizza flavoured Shapes, just because it's gonna expired soon. Then I had 2 chocolate squares. OMG! I felt bad each time I binge eating but I still repeat the same mistake. People say you learn from mistakes but this is the mistake that I will never learn from.

Today wasn't my day. So many different people came into the pharmacy and asked a variety of questions or asked for some products that I've never heard of. Felt really stupid for not being able to answer their queries. I guess it's the process of life. Learn something new everyday. Learn from zero.

Kim just called and my visit will be at 4pm. Urgh! I bet my heart will be palpitating from morning till she arrives at 4pm. I hope she'll arrive on time so that I can leave on time. Waiting for tutor to come is such an agony! But, anyway, I better start studying for the visit. Stop wasting time. I need to update my workbook as well. Gah!

impatient patient

"Don't question me like that. I know what I'm looking for."

Damn. I'm just trying to help you out. Plus, it's part of my practice as a future pharmacist. Can't you just bear with me for 30 seconds.

♥♥♥

My ♥ just melts when I see little kids who come into my pharmacy and waved goodbye to me. They are just so adorable!!! I can't help it! That's the best thing about community pharmacy so far. =P

open sesame!

I'M EXHAUSTED!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can barely open my eyes now..... =(

first day

I know that it'll take about 20 to 30 minutes to reach the pharmacy. So, I waited for the 8.56am bus since I start at 9.30am. The bus didn't come. I had to use the bus that came at 9.15am. I called my preceptor to inform her that I'll be a bit late. Being late on your first day is a big no no. But cant blame me. The bus didn't come. So, it's not my fault. I shall go for the earlier bus tomorrow. 8.43am. Why on earth did the bus not come today??? Making fun of me ay?

Ok. My first day in the pharmacy. It's a VERY busy pharmacy. It's very much bigger compared to DDS in Vic Park. It's still under renovation. So, everything is like here and there. Hopefully, they'll get it down as soon as possible so that I can find the product that the customers need. I was after Microlax today. I saw it somewhere on the shelf today but 10 minutes later, it's gone. They were shifting the products to another shelf and I had to search in the basket. Fortunately, I know how it looks like. Found it in the end. =)

Slowly getting used to it. Counselling skills is not that good yet. Still need more knowledge. All I can do is add more oil. By the way, my visit is in week 4 (28th June) and I need to study from allopurinol until methotrexate. Damn! Why do I always get the most drugs??? And it's on Monday, which is first day of week 4. I still need to study the drugs in week 4. ARGH! Wish me luck.

The journey home took me about 20 minutes. There's nobody in the bus except for me and an uncle but he got off at Southlands, leaving me in the bus alone. It's so boring to listen to songs and watch all the lights outside, alone. I wish I could nap a while in the bus but I can't, just in case I miss the stop. I saw Hsiu Li when I got off the bus. Perhaps I'll be in the same bus as her tomorrow. =)

best email received =)

Dear Student

I am pleased to inform you that you were successful in Wednesday’s Pharmacy 425 supplementary oral examination

Well done and best of luck for the next placement

Kind regards

Sue

HAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

slap slap

Mengapa 4th year begitu susah untuk diharungi? Kenapa? Kenapa? Kenapa? Aku akan berjumpa dengan mu lagi, sup. Aku benci akan mu tapi perlukan mu untuk balik ke Malaysia for good. I need Zyprexa now.

the end of dds life

Pharmacy is where I started my work experience. Pharmacy is where I earn my first income. Today, it's my last day in DDS. I'm gonna miss the time I had with all the staffs there. 10 weeks are not a short period of time. I had fun working with them although working is really tiring because I had to do everything, basically. I guess that's something which I'll remember for the rest of life. My first ever working experience. I got my first $$$ today not because of my rotation (rotation is FOC), but I worked extra hours to help out in the pharmacy. It's so much easier to earn money here than back in Malaysia. I was so happy to receive the money. $$ coming in after 23 years of living on earth. I feel like shopping after receiving that money. Too bad. I don't have the time. Not like Miss H who always gets her manicure done. =P

Eric (my preceptor who likes to joke around with me) and
Marshall (worked with him 3 days/week, good guy, helped me a lot)

Miri, a Korean girl who helped me a lot
and she's getting married soon...

Esther, friendly and nice.
hope she can survive dds life since it's pretty busy there.

A gift from Marshall and Fu Shan.
Thanks!!! Was really surprised. =)

I didn't get to take a picture with Caroline and Hollie because I didn't bring my camera when they were there. But I'm gonna see them in the next few weeks time. Hopefully, I'll get the chance to take a picture with them. =) DDS people are so nice and friendly. I shall visit when I'm free. Time to work hard on my oral exam. Next Wednesday. Wish me luck and pray that I pass my oral exam!

zzz

I just feel like jumping to my bed now. SOOOOOOOOOO sleepy. Hate the fact that I can't sleep when I actually feel sleepy. And, I actually napped for 30 minutes before cooking dinner today. This proved that I'm exhausted. From work. What else.

4

Friday night was usually relaxing for me. Not anymore in 4th year. I have a test next Monday and I'm totally not prepared for it. So, I shall listen to the i-lectures tonight. Hope I won't end up sleeping early and waking up late tomorrow. *fingers crossed*

All the best to you and me!

C'est la vie

I'm happy to work today because Caroline is there and she'll always keep me in the dispensary section. =) Too bad she only works on Wednesday. I dispensed a lot today. I think this is the first time I dispensed so many scripts in a day, which is good. But I guess good day doesn't always end in a good way. Oh well, shit happens. You just have to live with it.

bits and pieces

I've been back for a few days. I had to spend a night in KLIA on Tuesday for my flight the next day. Luckily, Pek came over to accompany me since he's staying somewhere in Cyberjaya. I only managed to sleep for an hour and half at Burger King. Thanks for the company.


When I first entered the plane, I slept like a log. Fortunately, Bryan helped me to keep the headphone and form distributed by the air-stewardess. I couldn't finish the food served by MAS. Maybe it was because I just had a heavy breakfast at McD at about 8am. I always finish all my food served. Typical auntie. But that day, I couldn't force myself to eat up everything because I was really full.


When I reached home that evening, I started to chat with YT There wasn't much time for me to unpack my stuff before going to Hsiu Li's house for a birthday surprise. I had a quick shower and walked over to her house with YT. We had Ciao Italia that night. =)


We had orientation the next day. Orientation Day was a torture. The workshop was worse. I went to meet my preceptor and discussed some details with him for a while. Then I went to Carousel for grocery with Yi Tyeng as it opens till 9pm every Thursday. We bumped into Chui Ying and Dolly in the bus. They were on their way to Carousel as well. I shall go to their house some time since Dolly said that there's a handsome Filipino housemate staying in her house. *wink*

There were a lot of people in Carousel that night. Perhaps it's always that packed on Thursday night. I've learnt a lesson that night. You should never plan a grocery on Thursday night. There were like so many people waiting for bus 72. Everyone was talking in the bus. It was so noisy that the bus driver didn't hear the bell ringing and missed 2 stops. As a result, we had to walk home with all our groceries. It was tiring. Plus, it was kinda scary to walk outside at night. So, say NO to late night grocery.

Yijia came over last night for dinner after my workshop. Although I was the light bulb of the night, I feel happy that you're happy. =) Just remember that you need to add more confidence into something.

Just before she came, I unblocked someone in my msn list. Some irritating, kiasu guy. Well, what can I say. Another lesson learnt. Never unblock anyone that you find annoying in your msn list if you'd previously blocked him or her. The moment I unblocked him, he started to crap. URGH!!! I just hate the feeling of being disturbed. I was being polite so I replied him. But I just find him so annoying no matter what he said. Hence, I shall continue blocking him.

Time to cool down and divert to something else. Something branded. LV. I've been watching people carrying LV bag around me. I feel like having one as well but it's just so expensive that I don't think I could afford one. When shall I stop picturing myself carrying one LV bag? Maybe when I start to know that earning money is not an easy job. That would a year time.

Everyone is asking me whether I'm excited that my rotation is starting soon. To be honest, I'm not actually. I'm worried and stressed but I'll try my best to perform well. I seriously need to stop slacking. I'm a well-known procrastinator. I just never change and I wonder why.

I need some rest before starting my busy life again. I must sleep early tonight. I've been sleeping after 1am since I came back here. I had a long chat with YT last night even though I was coughing the whole night. We chatted for about 5 hours. I think it was about 4am when I lied on my bed. We talked about everything. Everything that happened in the last one month. It was really fun to talk and laugh out loud although it was really late that time. Guess we won't be having such a long chat after our semester starts. Good luck in your honours. =)

Missing home...

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Result is out!!! And I passed!!!! =) Although I didn't pass with flying colours, I know that I should be satisfied with my results. 6 is always better than 5. So, be grateful, Ling Weng. Plus, you didn't even finished your final exam papers. >.< So, what do you expect?? An 8??? No way man!!!

Had a gathering with a bunch of friends from Adelaide. We went to Northbridge and had dim sum for lunch. They like those dim sum served in Dim Sim Cafe. Then, we stopped by Emma's to get some stuff for dinner. They bought some apple strudels back to Malaysia. I'm gonna get one as well. Hehe. We walked around the city while waiting for Wee Lee to come from airport. He had to take a bus from the airport to the city. Poor thing. Luckily, his luggage was VERY light. I mean VERY VERY light. I've never travelled with such a light luggage before. Lol.

The cooking began at around 7 pm and we started to have our dinner at about 9.30 pm. Lol. Everyone contributed a little tonight. I love the food. I love the people. I love the laughter. I love the dessert. I love everything that happened today. People from Adelaide really make this summer a more interesting one. =) They made our trip to Adelaide a memorable one as well when we went there for winter holidays. They just have the power to make our days a special one, especially Chui Shin. Life is gonna be so different with her around. I really enjoyed myself these few days. Thanks to friends from Adelaide. It's sad to know that we won't be meeting each other anymore. Guess we'll just keep updated via Facebook. That's what stalkers like me always do. =P

To Chui Shin, Sze Shen, Adeline, Weina, and Wee Lee. Have a safe journey back to Malaysia. =)

done. =)

Dreams. I've been having random dreams since few weeks ago. Random people just appear in my dreams. Sometimes, I'll wake up and laugh because it's just so random. Sometimes, I dreamt of my family, high school friends, relatives, and even my JPA advisor. >.< This is weird. I can even dream when I take short nap. REM sleep. Anything can happen in your dream. That's why they are so unreal.

Here I am. The end of 3rd year pharmacy. Hopefully. Just finished my oral exam. Hopefully everything will turn out to be fine. I just did whatever I could. Answer whatever questions that they asked. I skipped a lot and had no time to answer them after finishing my 5th case. As usual, I'm slow in thinking. I kept staring at the question on the paper. Praying that answer will slowly pop up but the likelihood of that happenning is 0%, most of the time. Oh well, I just aim to pass. Please....

I miss shopping soooooooo much. Who wanna shop and sing K with me???????? Call me. =)