I had 15 hours of sleep yesterday. From 430pm-730am the next day. You may think that 15 hours???? That's too much. But I only had about 30minutes of sleep the night before or should I say Friday morning?

Hmm.. apparently, I had 5 lab reports which was due on Friday at 12pm. So, I had to finish them up asap. My paraphrasing skill is extremely poor. I'm sorry, Siaw Tze. For referring to your reports and trying to figure out how to paraphrase your authentic work. I didn't have the faintest idea what the two practicals (prac 4 and 5) were about. That's why I need to go to Yijia's room to do my lab reports. She's got all the sources that I need to complete my reports. Two people doing their lab reports together is better than me doing it alone in my room. But, she finished earlier than me. She slept at about 3am. I stayed up until 6 something. I was thinking of not to sleep but still, I took a nap. My alarm rang at 7am and it's time for me to rush back to my room and print out my lab reports. Didn't have much time for breakfast, I just grabbed a yogurt bar and headed for HB tutorial at 8am. I was so sleepy in that tutorial. Sorry that I couldn't pay much attention in that tutorial.

After my HB tutorial, I had to rush back to VH and print my HSC research paper. Due date?? 25th May 4pm. Had some more time to draw some diagrams for my reports. And, FINALLY, it's time to pass it up and I found that everyone put their reports in a ring file. SO DEAD!!! I didn't even have a file and I was so desperate that I need to steal a piece of the transparent plastic paper (the soft type) from someone's clear folder. I know that that was a sin and it is still a sin. But what to do?? I've got no choice. Then, I heard from my coursemate that my supervisor wanted us to put our reports in a ring file, not a transparent plastic paper. ARGH!!! I was so pissed off and started to scold myself in my heart for not preparing a proper file. BALASAN!!!! In the end, I just dumped my reports in the transparent plastic paper and left for my chem tutorial. I admitted that I fell asleep in my chem tutorial. My other friends did too. I even laughed at him when I saw him dozing off only after a few seconds. Haha~ Everyone was like discussing the time that they slept the night before. Some didn't sleep at all and their eyes turned into panda bear's eyes.

After the chem tutorial, I went back to VH and copied the chem report that I was asked to hand in on that day. Yea, I finished copying and settled my HSC stuff, waiting for Yijia (queen of pekchekness) to finish hers and we went to hand in our HSC research paper then our chem reports. I think that I would have faint if I don't have the determination to pass up my HSC paper. I couldn't catch up with Yijia and Linda as they walked so fast and seemed to forget taht I was lack of sleep and I didn't have much energy to walk all the way to the stupid and far far away building just to hand in my HSC paper. However, I managed to pass it up on time.

Guess what happened next? When we went to the Chemistry building, there was no one at the counter to accept our chem reports. We quickly emailed our demonstrator, telling him about our problem. Then, I was so exhausted that I didn't even bother to inform Michelle not to wake me up as I needed sleep. I just changed and told my housemate who stays next to my room to tell Michelle not to wake me up but cook my dinner. I said that I'll wake up again later to have dinner. Once I laid on my bed, and that's the end of my day. I slept until the next morning. I looked at my watch when I woke up and saw the time. 730. Is it 730am or 730pm?? If it's pm, then I think that I can continue my sleep. So, I turned my head to my windows and saw some light. So, it's 730am. Time to wake up. Felt so bored because everyone was still sleeping. It's only 730am. Who on earth will wake up so early on a Saturday morning???? I was so hungry as I didn't have any dinner the night before. So, I made breakfast and watched a movie in my laptop. Relax the whole day. No academics on Saturday. Hehe.. Stress-free!!!! But, stress is gonna enter my life again as I'll be having my final exams in just two weeks and I haven't started my revision yet. Gonna be so dead!!! ARGH!!!!!

You will always say to your mom, "Mom, I got back my test paper today." "How much did you get?" asked your mom. "I got bla-bla-bla marks." You may say it out proudly to your mom because you think that the mark is OK for you. The first question your mom will ask is, "What's the highest mark that others get?" And you'll be like, "Erm.. 90 or above." And you'll continue to say, "But someone got 30. My mark is considered good already, just in between." Your mom will ask why can't you get 90 when others can. "Because they are smart and I'm not." Then, your mom will ask you not to compare with people who got lower marks than you, but to compare with those who got higher marks than you. That's how you can set an aim and reach for it in the future. Your mom will never know that deep inside your heart, you feel extremely sad and depressed too for not getting a higher mark. Everyone wish to get a high mark in their assessment test, right? Who in the world will wish to get low mark? It hurts whenever your mom asks you for your result when you know that you didn't do well although you had tried your best. You spent hours and hours preparing for the exam and slept less to study for it. In the end, you are still not satisfied with your result. So, what's the point of studying?? You'll think that why is this world so unfair? Why do some people have BIG brain while you have just a small, tiny, little brain which can't absorb any useful information, especially for your studies. Your brain can only fit fashion and entertainment stuff in it. Only those useless stuff will remain in your long-term memory. All those useful stuff will just go into your short-term memory and they will find their way out of your brain just a few minutes after you insert them into your brain. WHY??

Mixture of Feelings

Last night, I was SAD because my parents are going to USA for my brother's graduation. You might say that I'm crazy or whatever because it's just America and a graduation. Australia (me) and Malaysia (my family). A big distance too. But you won't understand my feelings. I'm so sad that I cried when I think of them going so far away and for the very first time.
I MISS THEM.

This morning, I tried to call my mom's mobile but nobody picked up. My sis smsed me after school and told me that they had left for KL this morning and asked me to call my dad's mobile. So, I did. I called and talked to my dad. It's been a long long time since the last time I talked to my dad. Then, he passed his mobile to my mom and we talked for few minutes. I asked them to take care and be careful. SUPER WORRIED about them. So, basically it's just a short chat with my parents. Now, I realized that I MISS MY PARENTS SO MUCH. After I hung up, I felt really HAPPY. Finally, I talked to them after so long. In the same time, I felt like crying but I said NO-NO to myself. I shouldn't have cried and should be happy for my brother who's gonna graduate soon. I should be happy for my parents as they can use this opportunity to relax themselves and enjoy their holiday. =) Four years later, they'll be coming to Australia for MY graduation. Hehe.

Now I should get back to my BLOODY HUMAN BIOLOGY notes and STUDY for my E3 test. =P

Going to Mamak Night after tomorrow's lecture.

FREE FOOD + DRINK. That's our AIM. Hehe.

Talking to parents can reduce my stress and make me HAPPY.....

stress began to build up and i began to cry. too much stuff to do and i cant handle it. my brain cant function now. i feel that i'm stupid and useless. i'm not eligible to be a scholarship student. starting to wonder why am i here. what's my purpose of life? can i do well in pharmacy? what's my future?

Friday is also an embarrassing day for me. Haih~
Last week, there was a pencil case left in my Human Biology Practical room. As my group was the last one to leave the room, my tutor asked me to keep it and ask my classmates if anyone left it there. Siaw Tze asked me to keep it until the next class and said that maybe I can meet my Prince Charming ( the pencil case owner).

I wasn't close to my classmates so I was quite reluctant to stand in front of the class and asked them about the pencil case. So, I passed it to Yie Min and asked him to ask the whole class. Obviously, he won't do that. We were like so busy figuring out how to do our PharmBio computer lab work until we forgot about the existence of the pencil case. We then rushed to the super lab when it was 330pm. We really didn't notice that the pencil case was still there. We lust left like that. I only remembered about it when I got back home. =(

This week, in my tutorial class, the owner came and asked about it. Haih~ Obviously, it's not with me and I felt terribly guilty. My tutor asked about it and I told her that I passed it to him. Now, i felt guilty for both of them, YM and R (the owner). Sorry for 'throwing' the responsibility to you. YM. I could feel that my face became very hot when my tutor asked me about the pencil case.

After the tutorial, I wanted to put my lab coat back into my locker. I saw R and his friends at the notice board, trying to search for the "Lost and Found" notice. Made me even more guilty. I tried to avoid them by using the longer way to my locker. Still, I bumped into them when I was arranging my stuff in my locker. ARGHH~!!! I told myself to relax. OK. I met up with ST and YJ and went back to VH together. On our way to Chemistry building, we bumped into them AGAIN!!!! PHARMACY BUILDING IS REALLY SMALL...... haih~

My whole day was filled with guiltiness.......... All the way back to VH........